Rejection

I found out today that I will not have a chance at MBBS at Adelaide Uni today.

This is kind of becoming routine now, getting so excited that interview offers are finally being released then feeling defeated to find that you didn't get one. Even though I have expected it every time it has happened, it hasn't made it any less disheartening.

As it stands now, 50% of my chances at medicine are gone. I should find out about the JMP soon and UNSW soon too, and JCU at the end of next month. I still have this paranoia that I wont get an interview at JCU because there will be some tiny mistake with my application...

All I really want is an interview. I think I could do well, because I truly want to do medicine. It still sickens me to think that medical schools accept people who are either doing it because their parents want them to, or for the money or the ever so illusive 'prestige'. What is even worse is that some of these people are so good they manage to make it through the interviews to become Doctors.

Although I don't really think of these people as real doctors. Yes they have the title, and their medical knowledge may be second to none, but they aren't really a 'doctor'. I prefer to refer to these people as Medically trained robots, perfect in their knowledge, and often perfect in their treatment, but with the personality and empathy of well, a robot.

Anyway thats my thoughts for the night, must go force myself to study for the last 3 HSC exams, even though it's the last thing I want to do.