Well that's it.

For me, the HSC ended yesterday. Only this morning has it really sunk in. I have nothing. No commitments. Nothing forcing me to do anything else. I just have, life. There is absolutely nothing stopping me from withdrawing all my uni applications and backpacking around the world for the next 10 years. Now that's a scary thought.

The past 13 years it has always been the same, the commitment has always been there. School was always there to go back to. Now it's not. It is really quite a weird feeling, not really happiness, kind of relief mixed with a slight sense of "WTF DO I DO NOW?!?!"...

Now of course I'm not going to backpack around the world, although I would really like to travel before I'm old and grey. For me, the past 13 years of education are coming to an end, and the next 13 (Probably more) are beginning.

On that topic. I finally had some good news in regards to getting into medicine, even with my UMAT I managed to get an interview for the Joint Medical Program!! I'm pretty damned happy about it, seeing as it was always my number 1 choice for medicine. UNSW interviews come out on Monday and I'm still confident I should get an interview for JCU. If I had more than one offer for medicine and had a choice I would be absolutely ecstatic.

In a couple of months the Uni life will begin for me. I don't really know what to expect. I've heard so many mixed opinions, some say it is easier than the HSC and others say that because I'm planning on Medicine it will be harder than the HSC. I'm just hoping I can stay motivated. Throughout year 12 motivation for me ranged so much. At the start I was telling myself that it's only a year and if I do well here it will all be better. Didn't work. Somehow I managed to scrape through and still have an estimated ATAR of 96, which with the amount of effort I put in is utterly unbelievable. I don't think there was one Assessment throughout the year that I thought I was completely prepared for, it always felt like it wasn't good enough and I could have done so much more. Somehow I managed. For example the physics HSC exam yesterday, I felt horridly underprepared and was expecting to do poorly, however I got in there and have never felt so confident about an exam in my life.... My mind works in mysterious ways...

Anyway here is a graph I made because I was bored to illustrate my motivation to do well in the HSC over the past year:

I think that gets my point across. The part where the rate of falling motivation starts to decrease represents the wake up call trials gave me.

Anyway, now I'm free. Kind of. I expect I will be able to write more interesting things up here more often now, so follow me! Tell other people to do so as well and make sure you check back regularly. I may delve into the realm of writing about my opinions on topical issues soon, not sure how that will go.

Thanks for reading :)